I am going to start doing fun things too.

Lately I've been getting kind of nostalgic for things that I used to love doing when I was little. Such as watching several Disney movies in a row and playing battle mode Mario Kart with my brother until the wee hours of the morning. Being constantly immersed in a fog of uncertainty and stress as to where I'm going and what my next step in life will be, I think I've actually forgotten to have fun. All I think about nowadays is how bored I am with my job and about how I don't know which path to follow. I'm not saying I'm going to lose sight of any ambition, but I need to get back some of those fun hobbies I once had. I want to PLAY! Earlier today I drew for a while and later I played video games. Admittedly, the drawing was a practice run for the board I'm going to be doing at work, but it was still fun and challenging. I've pretty much decided that I'm going to go back to graduate school, probably for a degree in teaching English. But I already missed the deadline to apply for this year, so even if I apply next year, I might not even get in until a couple years from now. Not to mention the dreaded GRE. I hate standardized testing. And part of the gradutae school application requirements say that you have to put in a 15-20 page paper that you wrote as an undergraduate. I only wrote one paper that was even close to that long and I really hated it. SEE?? I'm doing it again. I need to invest in a new computer too. Maybe I'll be more motivated to write and stuff. I keep saying that my dream job is to be a freelance writer, but I have little or nothing off of which to base that claim. Actually, nothing comes to mind. I basically only have experience writing analytical essays. Anyway, I'm just saying that I need to throw in some fun for relaxation purposes. Yes, I need to move toward some tangible goal, but all this worrying as really been a burden. I want to be happy! And if diverting my attention from reality for a few hours a day will help me de-stress-ify a bit...I say, whhhhhhyyyyyy not?