Uncertainty.

Friday should be very interesting based on the phone call I just made. Two of my high school friends are in town. I haven't seen one of them for a year and the other for about two years. I can't help but be concerned about what this meeting will reveal. They were handing off the phone to each other intermittently and while I was talking to the haven't-seen-or-talked-to-in-two-years friend she basically yelled into the phone "oh my god, I can't talk right now. I'm so high!" ??? I would kind of expect that from the other friend based on our last meeting, but I think this one might be having some real difficulty in her life right now, and I'm more than a little worried that what is supposed to be a friendly get-together this Friday to catch up and whatnot is going to turn into a stoner party and end up with me feeling awkward. As I get older and more aware of people's behavior, I've come to realize how many potheads there actually are out there. It's kind of disturbing to me that these people feel like they need to get high all the time to have fun or whatever. I'm not trying to make myself sound "superior" or anything, but I genuinely don't get the appeal. For me, there's always a heavy fallout when it comes to the party scene. Personally, I've been through a long enough period of time feeling out of control, and I'd prefer to stay away from chemical stimulants that would toss me right back into the throes of chaos. Last time I met up with these two, the haven't-seen-or-talked-to-in-a-year friend was offering me these horse pills or something in the car on the way home which was bizarre enough. I don't know. I just hope it doesn't get to the point where I feel uncomfortable. I'm not gonna sit here and judge people for what they will or will not do, but I'm not going to pretend that I wish people my age and my friends could just hang out and chat without any of that stuff involved. There's another aspect to this upcoming meeting that is most definitely going to push some added weirdness onto the situation. The haven't-seen-or-talked-to-in-two-years friend now has a boyfriend--one that she picked up on a hitchhiking trip across the US. ... ??? Oh man, it's going to be an interesting night.